Those few days...

He could not sleep the last night. Millions of thoughts were storming his heart; soul….He was incessantly waiting for his dreams to take shape. He was waiting to live his life. He was waiting foe her… She has taken him away from himself. She is the one who completes him, complements him, cares for him….

But he was not totally convinced about her because sane human beings are never sure of anything. They love to keep some doubts about almost everything as they are scared of utter clarity. They want clarity but not the complete clarity. He perhaps was a sane human being so the doubt.

He was restless. He was going to meet her after months. Last few months were strange. Despite thousands of miles of distance there was a strange contentment in his heart. But after all the contented felling, now he was feeling restless. His soul was eager and waiting for something nice, something surreal.

That long night has to pass because it is the law of the nature, it passed…Morning was amazingly serene and occult. Finally she was only few kms away. She was coming near every moment.

And they met. He was numb and blank for few minutes, unable to understand what has happened. He lost his sense of being, capability to distinguish between dreams and reality. He thought that similar things have happened in the last few months and this also might me some dream. He was trying his best not to believe in this moment. But the fact was she was with him. It took him an hour to come to the reality. Utter calmness prevailed. Her surreal presence was too surreal for him. He was in an inexplicable state of mind.

When he came to the reality he found himself traveling. He was told that it was an exotic place to visit. So he didn’t question. He was flowing with the flow. He had completely surrendered himself to her.

She belongs to some rare breed of people who are nothing less of a miracle. They possess some rare occult qualities.

They had a nice comfortable journey and they reached there on nice time. They were able to find a nice place for living also. Everything was amazingly felling in place. When ever they are together nature is also with them, making there life easy every second. They seem to ride on luck in each other company.

They were having the best time of their life. They were totally in sync with each other. They were always thinking on the same lines. There was an amazing sense of clarity between them. They seem to know what other person wants, what other person is expecting. This has been the hallmark of there unconventional relationship. There were true iconoclasts transcending all the stereotypes.

“By the way System thinking class is on while I am trying to write my heart out. It is constantly giving me new ideas and thoughts. I Thanks to my Prof. for not paying attention and letting my thoughts to take wings.”

Moving on these two souls were having experience of their lifetimes with each other. All their dreams were coming to reality. God was showering all the luck on them making them extra comfortable every time.

They went to some nice exotic places. They spent some nice silent time with each other. They were silent but their souls were unrelentingly talking to each other. They were exploring every possible aspect they possibly could explore. They were reinforcing their beliefs in each other.

Three days passed like a blink. They had their other obligations of life to meet. They had their dharmas to perform. They had to come back. They came back carrying with them some beautiful memories.

Journey back by Auto was an unforgettable experience which they will carry with them till the end.

Those were the moments of their life’s…

Now they had to depart only to meet again……

Theory of soulmates

Theory of soulmates

In certain reincarnations, we divide into two. Our souls divide as do crystals and stars, cells and plants. Those new souls are in turn transformed into two and so, within a few generations, are scattered over a large part of Earth. They form part of what the alchemists call the Anima Mundi, the soul of the world. The truth is that if the Anima Mundi were merely to keep dividing, it would keep growing, but it would also become gradually weaker. That is why, as well as dividing into two, they also find each other. And that process of finding each other is called Love. Because when a soul divides, it always divides into a male part and a female part.

In each life, one always feels a mysterious obligation to find at least one of those Soul Mates. The Greater Love that separated them feels pleased with the Love that brings them together again. One can find our soul mate by taking risks, by risking failures, disappointment, disillusion, but never ceasing in your search for Love

If our all the scattered souls are well, then we, too, will be happy. If they are not well, we will suffer, however unconsciously, a portion of their pain. Above all, though, we are responsible for reencountering, at least once in every incarnation, the Soul Mate who is sure to cross our path. Even if it is only for a matter of moments, because those moments bring with them a Love so intense that it justifies the rest of our days.

We can also allow our Soul Mate to pass us by, without accepting him or her, or even noticing. Then we will need another incarnation in order to find that Soul Mate. And because of our selfishness, we will be condemned to the worst torture of humankind ever invented for itself.

If you are lucky enough to find your soul mate then life will be nothing less than heaven.

Insane

There is a sense of uneasiness. My soul is not calm and has been shaken up vigorously by some mysterious occult power. Lots a things are pestering me these days. Something is always going inside my mind. Even when I am writing I am thinking of something else.

In retrospect things are going fine at my end. I am getting lots of attention from people close to me. Even on professional side things have started to fall on place. I am learning a decent pace in different areas and our mentors are as god as anyone can get anywhere. There are lot of things which I can do here and there is no dearth of opportunities. But that unease prevails time and again. Perhaps I want that unease to prevails so that I have some reason to be uneasy. But the question arises why would anyone do that? Any sane person would not and I can vouch for that.

Now that a paradox. How can a insane person vouch for the fact that he is insane? But what will you achieve by being sane. Out of 1 billion almost billion are sane in our country but everything but saneness prevails here. I don't want to be sane because it does not help to be sane. Does it help being insane then? It does not help either. ......

Every iconoclast, every nonconformist, every revolutionary is insane. They have to be because being sane does not help. You have to transcend your sane consciousness to reach to the that level of insaneness. But why do you want to reach there? I would say that to know that you have to reach there. Till that time keep overcoming your sane consioness and else it will keep over coming you...

Perhaps this is the reason why my soul is at unease. Perhaps I am trying to dodge my sane conscious or vice versa.........

First day/Preceptions ablaze@Chennai

4.10 PM 22nd July 2008

For the last 750 minutes things are happening with me at their whim. After barely sleeping for 70 minutes blaring taxi horn woke me at 3.30 am. I had no other option but to wake up and put myself into the taxi. I was in total confused state of mind. I had no idea how I am supposed to react. Amidst all the perplexing thoughts I reached airport and found some welcome company soon. 90 minutes in plane were vaguely thoughtless. Even the damsels (airhostess) could not invoke anything from me. 60 minutes of sleep rejuvenate me for the coming times. I landed with lots of assumptions which I have always tried to rein. Certain relationships teach you lots of things like conversing without saying anything and this skill is really helping me a lot here. Starting from getting a taxi to getting a room in hostel non verbal communication is playing a key role in shaping the things up.

10.43 PM 22^nd July 2008 Perceptions ablaze

Things have started to fall in place. In the last 6 hours I have met more than 10 of my classmates and I am glad that I have got a good intelligent bunch of classmates, which is imperative for any MBA batch.

A frequent site of black bucks and deer no more excites anybody here. They seem to be the eternal part of the background. I will not say anything about the infrastructure here as IIT Chennai has truly lived up to its expectation as a top notch IIT. Great hostels, big dining halls, breath taking swimming pool, affable people can make any place worth living.

Lunch time was a glimpse of things to expect on diet front. It was pure southie food with three sambar like vegetables. I tried all three…..”It happens Vikas” that what I told myself….

But lots of options are available and you can get a good northie food at Basera which is a small eating joint saving hundreds of north Indian souls from despair of eating local food which infact is not bad either.

11.13 PM 22^nd July 2008

It is a overwhelming feeling as internet is finally working in my hostel room. With everything configured it gives me a immense pleasure connecting with the world sitting in my hostel room.

It happened...

I still can’t believe that I happened. I was serious about the whole affair but had no idea that things will be that easy. My past gave me every reason for not to believe what happened. Like a true iconoclast I have always believed in breaking all the convention , traditions and this time also I have lived up to my expectations. Defying all the norms we went ahead and showed the people with us the way that led us to where we are. I am amazed to know that even though people around me were over excited but I was not but that in no sense means that I was not over excited. I have truly believed that things are not difficult as they seem they are and this experience has indeed proved my perceptions right in all manner. Even the fear of going tomorrow does not scare me any more because I believe that this whole affair will truly transcend all the boundaries. People say that a new phase has started now but I don’t believe it has as it was started 4 months and 3 days back.

Less than 16 hours have left for me to fly away to the different part of the country but sense of strange satisfaction is still prevailing, don’t know for how long.

Voyage

When I sit and look back at my journey of two years in W&C group, reactions invoked are nothing but satiating.

As a fresh pass out from campus, full of enthusiasm and energy, I got an environment, which proved to be a perfect vent for my high energy levels. I must say that with W&C’s diverse range of project and well-coordinated teams, one is able to find the right place for him. It was an exciting journey and I got exposed to lots of things in terms of technology, profession and lot more.

It was a great learning experience to work a part of WinApps team, which at one point of time was handling 6 different products. This project on the whole encompassed a gamut of technologies like Java, C++, and DBMS along with the SS7 protocols knowledge. I never felt that I am learning is limited by a narrow scope of work. In one way or the other opportunities to learn different technologies always existed. It was up to you on how you make use of them. My big appetite to learn always helped me grab the opportunities. With some brilliant and sharp colleges consciously or subconsciously I have learnt a lot of vital things, which in later stages of my professional carrier would definitely come in handy. Now when I introspect I always realize that lots of subtle things, which I know today, have been imbibed by me from my colleges. Email writing, document creation, client handling are few areas on which I improved with the help of my colleges.

One needs certain degree of flexibility and confidence of supervisor to work effectively and efficiently. In my case I got both the things. I always felt that I have the wings the fly freely and I can make the impact with my activities. There were moments when I thought that I am not learning anything new and my carrier is not progressing steeply. Instead of keeping these to myself I was went to my supervisor and in most of the cases we were able to explore exciting avenues, which could hasten my learning and growth. Sometimes it was in the form of some in-house project using latest technologies and in some it was my movement to the other team working in parallel.

Open communication model, which is followed here in true spirits, is a unique feature of this fast growing BU. I had full freedom to discuss my concerns with anyone in the group. But I must say that to create this kind of culture initiative has to come from the top and it came indeed. Regular skip level meetings gave everyone a platform to share their grievances. I always looked forward to the mails from the top management about the BU performance and other important updates. I thoroughly relished reading all those important and enlightening mails, which perhaps spoke volume about the clear and direct communication model, which was preached and practiced as well.

Aricent rich culture of in-house trainings is always of a great help. It honed my soft skills with technical skills as well and as a newbie in the industry this was the most sought after thing for me. I attended almost all the relevant and some times irrelevant training also and they definitely have made a subtle impact on my skills. W&C rich culture of organizing very specific technology trainings to gave me a head start while ramping up on diverse technologies.
In all the QSM I attended it was always a delight to know that my group has been performing consistently very well. Those were proud moments. I have always taken a keen interest on the things, which on the face are not in the preview of a Software engineer. In this quest I have always got lots of inputs from my supervisor and at the same time the timely mail about the BU performance have also served their purpose very well. Thrust again quenched …



In all enthralling experience till now………

Akshardham with her

June 22 Sunday commenced with a strange calmness that prevailed in my heart. I had a faint blueprint of the day ahead but I dint want to go beyond that because I hate planning of tasks and instead prefer to charter milestones. Anyway two of us were supposed to visit Akshardham but at the last minute a welcome guest also joined us in our quest to share some quality , quite moments.

Sun was beating down hard but that dint deters us to visit this miracle, that was created in 5 years by hundreds of people working incessantly.By after noon we were there. Personally I went with low expectation. The only charm was her calming company. But as the day began to unfold , the charm of Akshardham stared to unravel , growing bigger each time. The grand structure with very fine sculpturing can take anybody's breath away. The moment you see the fine work done on the walls , the first thought that cross your mind is that "Is this really possible today also" ? Above all it was the concept that was beautifully crafted. Three small shows were designed to convey the Concept of "Swami Narayan". And I must say concept was successfully conveyed.

While watching the shows I was always confused about the fact that my amazement is because of the show or it is because of her!!!! Every time I sat up to shift the room (During shows) , a mere thought of a walk with her was refreshing. The musical fountain which was the last event could only invoke one reaction from us, SPEECHLESS!!!

I would say the serene background of Akshardham was doing the trick. Every passing second was making us quest for more time together....

Day ended at midnight , with millions of twinkles in our eyes. We both saw millions of dreams together with open eyes. Millions of dreams were fulfilled..